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Settling - Again

Edmonton.
Montreal.
Calgary.

Now, Round 4 - Waterloo. A little bit more responsibility, a little less comfortable, a little more confident and a little less young.

I've felt restless these past few days at home, and wonder if it's because of my cold, or because I still don't know how to exist in two separate worlds. I would like to learn how that works, or if it can.

I am once again considering the purchase of a DSLR. This time, more seriously. I borrowed my coworker's tonight just to get a feel for it. I really like the 50mm prime lens.

The dilemma is that I'd been planning on buying new bedroom furniture. Buying a new bed is not negotiable. I need a better mattress than the things I've been sleeping on recently. But the rest of it...I could go cheaper. Craigslist maybe. Note to self: I need to make an actual budget of how to spend my money from the government.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Wow, one of the Waterloo staffers has a DSLR, eh? :) I use a 50mm lens, too. Btw, if you were wondering how much it'd cost to get a decent used DLSR w/ 50mm lens off Craigslist, I think it would be around $450-500 from my experience.
Sarah said…
I've been wanting to go to Swiss Chalet for a while. Guess I should have stayed in town.
Laura J said…
you crazy ontarians and swiss chalet!! By the way, I love the second quote from Lalo. Hilarious. Ans how exactly did Dan get you?
Beth said…
paulman: i was thinking craigslist for furniture, brand new for the camera!

sarah: i've had it twice since sunday!

laura: we are crazy...and dan blogged about the office, but he lied about what happened. so i was tricked.
Daniel Ray said…
I spent a fair amount of time looking for a good bed on craigslist and eventually gave up. It was just too awkward trying to sit in someone's living room and lay on their unmade bed while they watched. I'd rather have a used DSLR.

p.s. can i borrow your new camera? I promise I won't drop it.

p.p.s. how do you like the new look?

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