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Awake or Asleep?

It felt like I had fallen asleep hugging my cell phone, and now it was ringing on vibrate. My torso and my arms were silently shaking, and I woke up.

But I couldn't move. My arms were stuck across my chest, my head immobile. I remembered that I had put my cell phone beside my pillow, alarmed and ready for the morning. As I thought about it, I couldn't feel anything except my own self and the sheets. There was no phone touching me, no reason for me to be vibrating softly.

I tried calling out, but no sounds came. In my mind, I rolled onto my side. Nothing. I tried wiggling my fingers. I thought of the fact that my roommate lay sleeping less than 20 feet away but was entirely unaware that I was trapped in my own body.

I forced myself to calm down, to breathe deeply. As I did, I found myself dreaming I was in my childhood home. This time, I called for my mother.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmoooooooooooooooooooooooooom!

I could feel my vocal chords straining. But I don't think my lips even formed the necessary "M" to make the sound. I kept calling out. For Mom, for God, for pretty much anyone.

In a split second, it broke. In my dream, I was suddenly in the kitchen. I said to my mom, who was standing at the counter, "I called you...but I couldn't make a sound."

I think I cried.

Then I woke up.

I was back in my house.

I could move.

The clock read 12:35am. I had been asleep for less than an hour.

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