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Sunday of Sweetness is Almost Here

That is how I will be thinking of Sundays from now until Easter. (When you observe Lent, you get Sundays "off" as a day of celebration.)

Growing up, we didn’t observe Lent; I didn’t know that anyone other Catholics did until university. The last couple years, I’ve found it a helpful and encouraging discipline, even if it is “extra-biblical.” I could go an as to why, but I will save that for another time (if anyone is interested).

This year, I have given up dessert. My prayer, in doing so, is Jesus, I want you to be as sweet to me as the sugar I crave.

It has been four days.

I have been failing miserably.

On Wednesday, I ate three bites of a chocolate bar on the coffee table before I remembered that Lent had just begun.

On Thursday, a friend brought me cupcakes as a celebration of our friendship’s “one-year anniversary.” It would have been rude to refuse her thoughtfulness.

On Friday, I offered to take a guest for bubble tea before I remembered it was Lent. Again, it would have been rude to renege on my offer. And does bubble tea count?

Today, I ate a small piece of dark chocolate. Knowingly. And because I haven't officially ruled it out.

And in my failing miserably, I am finding great success. The night before Lent began, I watched Chocolat, which is my favourite Lenten/Easter movie. It reminds me (to paraphrase Pere Henri) that my goodness is not found in what I deny myself, what I am not, and what I exclude. And even if I've managed to make a mess of every day this week, there is still grace and forgiveness for me.

Which means that tomorrow, I will eat dessert without guilt.

Comments

aban said…
i like this post.
giving up chocolate//sweet things is hard. i would know, i crave chocolate cake at leaast 50 times a week. and no, i am not making this up!

seriously, hoorah for grace. sweet, sweet sweet, makes-me-smile-from-ear-to-ear, GRACE!
Anonymous said…
I have also given up sweets including chocolate. It is amazing how many times I catch myself thinking about how I am going to reward myself with a treat. It is good to have to think twice about giving into my cravings. And I am being much more successful with this than when I gave up coffee for Lent... and I am sure that my friends and co-workers are glad that I am still on coffee.

Andrea Wiens
hiukei said…
i love the movie Chocolat too!!
i never realized until now that it's actually a great movie for Lent!!

enjoy eating chocolate and sweets without guilt! hehe!!

if you ever have a chance..come visit me in japan and i will bring you to all the amazing bakery, pastery shops, cake shops...cafes..etc. hehe!it'S never ending in japan!!

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