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Today was possibly my favourite Saturday of the year.

I know, it hasn't been a long run yet. But still. I slept in. I did laundry. I was creative (spurred on by my friends & a slight sense of envy, I am hoping to be more purposeful in doing some creative writing). I had a successful trip to the Metropolis at Metrotown.

Purchased: one specific sort of lightbulb for my new desk lamp. Two pairs of Costa Blanca pants for $10, regularly $40 each! One hoodie that has a nice design on it and won't pill in two months.

Wendy and I turned our trip into a full-day event, grabbing supper and watching 27 Dresses. A quite enjoyable chick-flick, although the theme of disastrous newspaper articles is a bit overdone.

The funniest moment of the day was on our way to the car in Metrotown's underground parkade. What's that on our left? There's someone sitting in the car? No wait! There are two people in that car. On the same seat? Oh wait...

Moral of the story: if you're going to m…


I don't usually like store bought cookies. I much prefer the handmade with love variety.

But these! Mmmmm. I could eat them all day. The way they melt in your mouth. The warmth of ginger with sugar. Mmmmm.


Yesterday I was asked, "What makes you sad?"

And I couldn't really answer without being trite. But today I can.

What makes me sad?

Heath Ledger dead. Possibly of an overdose.
Amy Winhouse filmed smoking crack.
Britney Spears looking to get pregnant.

But it's not just a problem "out there" that makes me sad.

Someone answered, in the 'what-makes-you-sad' conversation, that they're saddened by the atrocities people commit against each other in situations like the Holocaust and genocides in Rwanda and other places. The way it was said, I thought it sounded like 'I can't believe people can do that to each other!' And it reminded me of two things.

I recently listened to Tim Keller talk (not in person) about our difficulty forgiving certain actions or sins of others. And the reason we can't forgive, he said, is that we imagine ourselves to be above that sort of sin. There is an Other - the sinful person - and there is Us - the person who woul…

Something's Gotta Give

In the stress I've felt over the past few weeks, these three verses from Isaiah have been incredibly encouraging. To know that Jesus says these same things to me...

For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel, 'In repentance and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.'
Isaiah 30:15a

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, 'This is the way; walk in it.'
Isaiah 30:21

'Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters,
and you who have no money,
buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.'
Isaiah 55:1

des Pensées

I have a book idea. I actually like it. And I might actually do something about it.

Sunshine on Tuesday morning is God's gift to my staff team.

It is hard to get up before the sun. And I dislike working after dark.

There is enough chocolate in my room to last me til April. I wonder if it will.

Blaise Pascal wrote the following and then sewed into into his clothing after coming to know Jesus:

Certitude. Certitude. Emotion. Joy. Peace...Total and gentle resignation. Total submission to Jesus Christ.

On Dysfunction and Poverty

I have been thinking a lot recently about family. I have had all manner of thoughts. Some good, some bad. Some that are neither morally right nor wrong. But I've been thinking.

And I've been reading. Specifically, the Bible. I'm reading through the Bible in a year, and so these past few weeks have brought me up to chapter 31, verse 16 of Genesis. And already, I'm noticing that Biblical families are highly dysfunctional. They are a far cry from the happy church family that I envision as a "godly" group of people. And the weirdest thing is that their inner turmoil was made public. I can't help but ask why. And I can't help but wonder how/where their righteousness comes from. It certainly wasn't from being morally upright. So why did God choose them? Why would God say, "This is the line I want to call my own."?

Abraham - lied about his wife, tried taking God's promises into his own hands (ie Hagar)

Jacob - generally deceived his way throug…

I Spy Blue Sky

Maybe it was the jagged blue between the clouds. Maybe it was the fact that by 9am, I'd put in more than an hour of work. Maybe it was the way credit companies practically throw money at you. Maybe it was the good feeling of knowing my credit rating is perfect. Maybe it was the sound of the UK accent. Maybe it was knowing that today is Friday. Maybe it was wearing my amazing new MEC booties courtesy of the boys downstairs.

Some thing(s) told me that today is going to be better than yesterday.

Wayback Playback

On the front of one of my journals from the summer of 2004, I wrote this quote:

Damned be this tepidity.
~Jim Elliot

I still find is stirring. Perhaps because it's a legitimate use of the word damn. Perhaps because I struggle with apathy. Perhaps its for both reasons.

Good Morning, Monday

As I work at my desk today, these are the two songs I could listen to on repeat:

Beautiful You by Monk & Neagle
All the oceans and the seas know the sound
Of Your beautiful voice
And if You tell them to be calm and be still
They have no other choice

You put the stars in the sky and then You taught them to shine
They know just what to do
Every morning’s a symphony that’s perfectly timed
Thanks to beautiful You

Beautiful You
I can’t imagine life without You
Beautiful You
I can’t imagine being alone
Beautiful You
The only thing I ever wanna do
Beautiful You
Is have You hold me in Your arms
Beautiful You

All the waterfalls know just where to fall
Brilliant every time
When it rains, you are behind it all
With gentle rhythm and rhyme

Mountains high know Your voice
And they are ready to move where You tell them to
With all my heart, I believe that I can do the same
Thanks to beautiful You

Every ocean, every sea
Every morning’s a symphony
Every drop of rain, every waterfall
All the stars in the sky are so beautiful


I've left this one for a few days, as I don't particularly like resolutions. I don't like the fear of failure. And my resolutions will never be as grandiose, spiritual, and honest as Jonathan Edwards'.

Regardless. Here are my....let's call them hopes for the new year.

1. To read through the Bible.
2. To run at least one 5k (my attempts last year were thwarted).
3. To read a non-essential book every month.
4. To intentionally improve musically. Either learning a new instrument (jambe or blues harp) or going back to one I already 'know' (piano, guitar, or penny whistle).
5. To memorize James. I've started this a few times, and it would feel really good to finish it.
6. To be my sister's maid of honour. Ok, this isn't a resolution at all. It's just going to happen. CONGRATS, SARAH & LALO!
7. To intentionally improve my photography skills.
8. To pray more.
9. To do at least one thing that honestly frightens me.
10. To walk closely with God on a daily b…

Already Behind (Another List)

I sometimes joke about having adult-onset ADD when it comes to books. For an English Lit major, I lack discipline in finishing books. Perhaps because I didn't always have to in school...Anyway, the result is that I own piles of unfinished or unstarted books. I would like to read at least a book a month this year. And I'd like to mix it up.

Of the books currently on my shelf, I want to read:

Simone Weil (a biography) by Francine du Plessix Gray
The Invisible Bond by Barbara Wilson
Eric Liddell: Pure Gold (a biography) by David McCasland
The Book That Transforms Nations by Loren Cunningham
God's Gravity (the upside-down life of selfless faith) by Craig Borlase
Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster (ironically I quit reading this in the middle of the chapter on fasting sometime during second year)

If I add these half-dozen outside books, I've got a book a month:

The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
Musicophilia: Tales of Music & the Brain by Oliver Sacks
I am America (and So…

I (Heart) Music. And I Always Will.

If your name is Mat(t) and you are a musician, I probably like your music. For example: Mat Kearney, Matt Walko, Matt Wertz, Matthew Good, Matt Costa.

But onto discoveries of 2007. I've deliberated much, and finalized the following songs as my best new finds:

Cold Water by Damien Rice
Inevitable by Anberlin
You Are Mine by Mutemath
All The Way Down by Glen Hansard
Giving Up by Ingrid Michaelson

Honourable mentions go to these songs I love, by bands I knew before '07:
Look After You by The Fray
To Be Alone With You by Sufjan Stevens
Til Kingdom Come covered by Coldplay
Song of Hope by Robbie Seay Band
When I Was a Young Girl by Feist


I opened up my box of journals and organized them according to date. I'm actually pretty excited to read through some of them, although I won't make it through the whole series. I started keeping a (prayer) journal in 2001. I am currently on book #22.

I don't really keep daily logs of activities. I'm much more diary-like on here, more prayer-like on paper. Actually, I would like to someday line up my blog entries with the journal entries from the same dates. Or around the same dates. I think it would be telling, although I'm not sure what it would say, exactly.

Having typed out my entries from the past six years, I wonder if this actually is any sort of good idea. I'm not sure. But I've done all the typing, and I do believe in transparency. Judge how you will, here are the "highlights" of my prayers from Day 1.

2002 (gr. 12, spent with my friend, "F")
Thank you for today. Thank you for a new year! Thank you for yesterday and the good time I …


It's been a long time since I've gone a week without posting anything on here. It actually felt good. It had nothing to do with the holidays, and I contemplated disbanding the blog altogether. Then last night, as I lay in a B-rate, courtesy-of-WestJet hotel in Leduc, trying to fall asleep so I could be up for my 5:55 shuttle to catch my flight home, I changed my mind. I came up with several "first blog of the year" ideas.

They include:

- my favourite 5 songs by artists I didn't know before 2007
- resolutions of some sort
- entries from my journals at the start of previous years
- reading list for the coming months

I think, in the next few days, I might do all of the above.