Departure Day To-Do List

Today's to-do list:

- take my anti-malarial pill (with a hearty breakfast)
- fold & put away laundry (done)
- pay credit card bill
- pay phone bill
- set up email auto-responder
- put packing pile into hiking backpack & carry ons (aka PACK.)
- write a goodbye (for now) note
- shower
- drink a beer on the deck (weather permitting)
- go to the airport
- get on a plane to Tanzania, via Amsterdam.

No big deal, right?

I won't have internet while I'm away, so this little space will be silent for a month (big surprise, after a nearly-silent spring). This has been a very full season for me. A good one, with lots going on internally & externally. I have been feeling private and protective of my solitude, but when I'm back, I am sure that there will be plenty to process and share. Can't wait to reconnect with all of you!

And if you're the praying sort, my two main goals are to make it back without any parasites, and to avoid cancer-causing sunburns... Also, to be open to what Jesus has for me there. Because frankly, I don't have a clue.

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